Below is a peice of my journal from when I found out I was pregnant, it was so bittersweet to read the different emotions I went through, scared,nervous,excited etc. (I was actually still in the hospital when I wrote this, I ended up having a week long stay).... Dang reading this felt like a sucker punch to the gut, I was so excited to be Josiah's mommy and it all ended so soon, I never got the chance to spoil my baby or hold him in my arms (alive)
Sept 2. 2010
So on Monday night August 30th , I found out I was pregnant, I had came to the emergency room because I was nauseous and couldn't’t keep and liquids or food down. I figured I was having complications from my surgery. So to make a long story short I went to have a CT scan done, and I was waiting on the results so I could go home, the doctor comes in and says ok there are a few things you have a kidney infection, a UTI, your pancreas is swollen and you are pregnant. I was like HUH I was waiting for him to say im just kidding lol but he never did.... so they ended up having to keep me in the hospital to treat me. So it was about 11:30pm when I found out and I was like I have got to tell somebody this so I called my baby daddy and I text'd my sister and Bray and Jen Jen and Ashley and my bro J…. so a little later they took me to have my first ultrasound and I got to see the babies heart beat and I realized that this was really happening. When I seen the heart beat my heart melted and I instantly fell in love. I wish I could have a ultra sound everyday.
Today I had my 2nd ultra sound and I got to see my babies tiny body and big head. The ultrasound technician said that the baby had hiccups awe how cute is that. I also got my first picture of my baby. My friends and family are very supportive. I think my dad is the most excited lol he wants the baby to be a boy he says its about time he is finally gonna be a grandpa Im happy he is happy he even said he would baby-sit and buy all the baby items if it was a boy, but I want a girl so bad. My sister also wants a boy. I should be able to find out what the baby is in November im so excited. I have a feeling it will be a boy I hope im wrong lol but as long as the baby is healthy I will be happy. So I don’t know if I am going to be able to go home today or not my potassium is low so they are trying to bring that up before they let me go home. I am so excited that God has blessed me with a baby and I pray that he gives me a healthy pregnancy with no complications. Another funny thing is my family is already arguing over who is gonna throw the baby shower lol.
At first I didn’t want one but now im ok with having one. I am almost done with my first trimester so that is easing a lot of stress and worries. And hopefully this ALL day morning sickness will go away. I have so much to be thankful for I never imagined the day that I would actually be pregnant and now its here. So thank you Lord for my little bundle of joy!!! …I need that picture to keep me motivated and to melt my heart when I look at it. I love my baby already! I cant wait until I get to hold the baby in my arms and just love on it and kiss it and spoil it rotten. I have a feeling this is going to be one spoiled baby lol between me and my dad and my sister there is no doubt about it. I wish my mom could be here to share the excitement of everything. But I know that she already knows about the baby and she is a proud grandma from heaven. Today is also my moms birthday and I miss her more and more….
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